Your Existing Situation
Needs excitement and constant stimulation. Willingly participates in activities that are thrilling and offer adventure.
Your Stress Sources
"Has high standards and wants to make friends with those who have equally high standards; however, she has been unsuccessful in building these types of relationships. she is feeling under appreciated and her self-esteem is damaged because of it. she is uncomfortable with the situation and wishes to escape, but refuses to make compromises or lower her standards. Puts off resolving her problems because she afraid of the conflicts it may cause. In order to feel secure, she needs to feel appreciated by others so they will do what she asks of them and respect her opinions"
Your Restrained Characteristics
"Willing to become emotionally involved, but is demanding and picky when choosing a partner. Is careful not to bring out conflict or disagreements as this may decrease her chances of achieving her goals and ideas."
"Although she is able to find contentment through sexual activity, she feels hopeless to change her problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what she has."
Your Desired Objective
Is in need of immediate rest and relaxation. Longs for peace and a sense they are understood. Feels she has been treated unfairly which makes her angry. Cannot stand to stay in an environment in which she is treated unfairly and with no consideration for her feelings.
Your Actual Problem
"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."
Your Actual Problem #2
"Tension and stress is brought on by trying to cope with conditions which are out of her control, using up all her strength and leaving her feeling inadequate. she wishes to escape into a more peaceful and problem-free environment, in which she will no longer have to assert herself or deal with so much pressure.
➔ Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
➔ Post the first definition it gives you.
1.) Your name: Alyssa
the kind of girl who still manages to find a way to smile; the one that you'll see walking down the hallway, having her head up high, trying just one last time; the kind of girl that will get back up, each andeverytime she falls... the kind of girl who NEVER gives up (Mushy..)
2.) Your age: 16
3.) One of your friends: I picked Neiha but you weren't defined yet. XD YOU'RE UNDEFINABLE. So, Anna.
The name for the most awesome person ever, It is impossible to fit so much awesome into any other person (Yus!)
4.) What you should be doing: Doing homework
When James and Jennifer get together on long summer nights and have wild, raunchy sex
5.) Favourite color: Orange and Purple
Taking the 40mg orange disolvable tablet of methadone and mixing it in water. (I got Halloween Orange)
6.) Birthplace: Westerly, Rhode Island
A pitiful town in Rhode Island, where everyone knows everyone, and there are a bunch of clicks that wish they were fuckinq qhetto. Everyone from newton ave thinks theyre fuckin hardcore, thouqh everyone in the town thinks they're the GRIMEYEST people in the town. Then you have BTOWN, aka Bradford, a bunch of fricken retarded people who think theyre cool cause they live there, but in actuality they would be even cooler if they didn't. Broccolo's run that shit, in case you didn't know. Next you qot the simple fact that, everyone there is short, annoyinq, bitchy and lies too much for their own qood. The qirls are a bunch of conceited backstabbers, and most of them aren't even cute at all... but yet, the people of Westerly are content, and they won't ever leave, because they love their beaches, love their BESS EATON ( FUCK TIM HORTONS ), love their dustys, marios, chens, and obviously they love qoinq to On The Run about a hundred times a week . Last but not least ; WALMART. end of story ; <3 (....... SOB.)
Rhode Island itself isn't much better: Quahaugs, Family Guy, Newport, Narragansett, The Ocean State, beaches, summer, Del's Lemonade, coffee syrup, "bubbla", WaterFire, Ferderal Hill, corruption, East Side, Mr. Potatoe Head..... enough said.
7.) Month of birth: March
Month in which creative, layed-back, dreamy, cool people were born
8.) Last person you talked to: Rose
The most beautiful girl ever. A rose has the face of an angel and when you see her eyes light up when she smiles, you can't help but smile back. She is hilarious, and loves pulling pranks
9.) One of your nicknames: I'll do them all!
Mels: ... I got Melalicious and the definition, "Being as delicious as mels"
Eki: Got Eki Ben "Japanese expressions used for having sex standing up. It comes from Eki which is train station, and bento like a lunch box. So basically it is a station lunch box." Yeah.
Shima: "hot sexy and oh so tempting"
DID ANNA TELL YOU?
(1:40 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: ...TELL ME WHAT?
(1:41 PM) EkiAku: PARIS SAID IT
(1:41 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: ..LIKE. WHOLLY?
(1:41 PM) EkiAku: YES
(1:41 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: A PROPER THREE WORD
(1:41 PM) EkiAku: HE SAID I LOVE YOU
(1:41 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: I LOVE YOU
AKALGKLAGLKGL E'GAK'LGLAJ GKLDFJGKLAJG
(1:41 PM) EkiAku: ....
(1:41 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: AKLGJALKGAKG;LKAG;LKG;LKLAGKLAGKG
(1:41 PM) EkiAku: Spaz
(1:41 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: THATJKL
(1:42 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: ANKJBJAKLJG AGAAGKJKJGKJFKAJ LJF STOP GRINNING SELF LAJKA
(1:42 PM) EkiAku: I have this documented for life
(1:42 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: ...LMFAO
WELL I FEEL FLATTERED
(1:42 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: MELECH
(1:43 PM) EkiAku: Mel was so fuckin happy
(1:43 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: akgjlajgkljglkjgag CCCCCCCCCCCx
(1:43 PM) EkiAku: Initiated a file transfer
(1:43 PM) Transfer of "Pasted_Data_f462.txt" is complete.
(1:44 PM) EkiAku: Mel's sucha girl sometimes XDDd
(1:44 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: ....
omg that's so
(1:44 PM) Neinei'Sharie◊◊i: *TACKLES MELECH*
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
This is for the RP wedding~. It's on August 12th, as all of you know. Starts at 12PM EST but feel free to come earlier. The chat's name is Novikov. It's on AIM.
Now, if you're having trouble with this, you can ask me to invite you, I'll be around all day. However, you can go in there without anyone's help. What you do is go to Menu, and New Group Chat, as if you were making a new chat. In the participants, put your own screenname, and in the chatname, put "Novikov".
Comment if you have questions!
- What I'm feeling~:cold
On that note, it should be illegal for my school to NOT HAVE AIR CONDITIONING. Yes, you heard me. My old and rotted school does not have air conditioning despite the fact it is June 22 and I'm still in school and it can get OVER NINETY DEGREES OUTSIDE.
On another note, my mother will not let me skip school on Friday even though we're taking our final early. I REFUSE TO GO TO SCHOOL TO SIT IN THE HEAT FOR TWO HOURS. REFUSE. I will bitch and bitch and bitch but I WILL NOT TAKE THAT.
I swear, this all should be illegal.
[ ] You are cute
[x] You love to play
[ ] You don't like getting into fights
[ ] You hate the darkness or you are afraid of it
[x] You have a best friend forever
[x] You love your best friend very much
[ ] You usually don't lie
[ ] You don't say bad words
[ ] Most people love you
[ ] You are youngest of all your siblings
[x] You like to wish upon a star
[x] You have a lots of stuffed animals
[x] You can swim
[ ] You go to swimming pool at least one time a week
[x] You hate racism
[ ] Someone has said that you are hot
[ ] You are very social
[ ] You don't spend more than 2 hours on the computer or TV
[x] You enjoy sleeping
[ ] You know most of your neighbors' names
[ ] You can speak in another language than English.
[ ] You visit social places
[ ] People call you a "smiley face"
[ ] You LOVE spending time in the water
[ ] You are a street kid
[ ] You have been in an accident
[ ] You usually get into street fights
[ ] Your favorite kind of music is rap
[ ] You have been shocked by electricity
[x] You seriously need to get a life.
[x] People say you're too egotistic
[ ] You have tried gangsta style
[ ] You try to be really cool
[x] You really want someone
[ ] Last thing you did before you sit on computer was meeting with someone.
[x] You hate something right now
[x] You are kind of a hothead
[x] People try to calm you down
[x] When you want something, you won't stop until you get it.
[x] You are seriously waiting for something right now
[x] You annoy people
[x] You like cartoon villains more than heroes
[x] You would like to have red eyes.
[x] You were born in summer or spring (It's three days away, it's close enough!)
[x] You can think of crazy things
[x] You have burned something
[x] Things around you are stupid
[x] You don't like your life at a moment
[ ] You believe in magic
[ ] Your first boyfriend/girlfriend dumped you
[x] You really love someone
[ ] You believe in love at first sight
[x] You haven't tried to smoke, take drugs or drink alcohol
[x] You are a goody-goody
[x] ...or average
[ ] You get injured easily
[x] People don't really get you
[x] You MUST do something right now
[ ] You are like a psychic
[ ] You have great sight
[ ] You love the dark.
[x] You like to wear/see/use the color black.
[x] Glow in the dark stickers are cool.
[ ] You are sometimes thought of as evil by your appearance.
[x] You look out for yourself at times.
[x] You have or would like to have a umbreon in your pokemon games.
[ ] You are terrifyingly silent.
[x] You have eyes that make people timid or afraid.
[x] You have helped or been helped by someone but never said 'you're welcome' or 'thank you'.
[x] You are somewhat of a loner.
[ ] You love to go out in the night.
[x] You have excellent vision in dark places.
[x] Fall or spring is one of your favorite seasons.
[ ] You adore the color green.
[ ] You love flowers but choose not to pick them.
[ ] Clean, green and pristine is your way of life.
[x] Animals adore you and you adore them.
[ ] You are a very peaceful person.
[ ] You care deeply for anyone even if you do not know them at all.
[ ] You enjoy long walks in nature or the woods.
[ ] You are a vegetarian.
[ ] Your eyes are or you wish for them to be green.
[ ] You really can't stand cold days.
[ ] People really love to be around you.
[ ] Winter days are your favorite seasons.
[x] Cold weathers don't phase you with or without a jacket.
[x] You have or wish to have amazingly snow white or light blue eyes.
[ ] You live in a place where it's cold all year round.
[x] Hot days are your most hated time of any week.
[x] You don't mind cold foods.
[ ] You have once used a cold joke during cold times.
[ ] You adore very much the colour white.
[ ] You take long walks in the snow.
[ ] You have a cold personality.
[x] People can't really call onto you for sympathy.
[ ] You have heard the song Cold by Crossfade.
I.... honestly am not surprised. I got the entire thing for Flareon. Leafeon doesn't surprise me either. I'm not a nature gal at all. ... Jolteon's annoys me. CITRINE WOULD NOT BE A STREET GANG, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
Oh and the mood? My Flareon in my SS has a Naughty Nature. :3 Also, sob. I don't have a Flareon icon.
- What I'm feeling~:naughty
Yeah. Never happened.
Sob, I'm so lonely. I haven't been out with my friends in so long.
Also, why is my school so WEIRD? My exams aren't until... a month.
Though I do have a project due Friday that I haven't started...
ALSO! I am in LOVE with Fun. Just bought their album on Itunes. Aim and Ignite.
- What I'm feeling~:lonely
- Headbanging to:Be Calm - Fun.
Anyway, how are you all? It's been a long time since I haven't done a non-meme journal. I just haven't felt like talking lately. I've been closing myself up more and more. Not only that but my friends, in real life especially, haven't been doing so well. My one friend is mad at me and keeps yelling at me because she says I said something. I remember the situation that she is talking about but what she claims I have said... I have not said. Now, you know me and injustices. I got very, very pissed off. Thinking things such as, "How dare she accuse me of saying something and when I deny it saying that I'm LYING!" Not only that, she's gotten all of my other friends besides Jess (not America-mun) on HER side. According to her, they're all mad at me.
It's really fuckin stupid and childish but it still pisses me off that she's doing this. What is she, a middle school kid? Don't spread malicious poison like that. Especially since it's not true!
This has been a ranty journal, wow.
RP news, for any who care (XD No one I bet). Benjamin and Abigail are still the cutest things ever and Mel was put in drag. Again. His children laughed at him. The poor man. The high school AU had serious angsting for a while but now it's okay.
.... Wow, I can tell I'm a bad mood, I don't even feel like ranting about my RPs. Aaaaahhh! Help! This is bad!
... oh and I'm fuckin' starved and would really like some Frosted Cheerios. Except, we don't have any. ;;
Pokemon SoulSilver is slow. I'm still training. I got pretty far but I still have about 19 more levels to go before I can continue my adventure. I realize I'm super over leveled. I'm not even on my way to Cianwood yet and all my Pokemon will be equivalent level to Will of the Elite Four's weakest Pokemon, level 40. Umbreon and Flareon have been the least fun to train. Jolteon was my favorite.
In case I haven't told anyone, I always, if I can, use the Eevee evolutions as my party. They all have special nicknames and personalities in my head. I won't go into the personalities unless anyone is interested but I will show the genders and nicknames.
Eevee (female) - Topaz
Vaporeon (female) - Aquamarine
Jolteon (male) - Citrine
Flareon (female) - Ruby
Espeon (female) - Amethyst
Umbreon (male) - Obsidian
Leafeon (male) - Jade
Glaceon (female) - Sapphire
<3 I hope one day Nintendo thinks up an Eevee evolution for each type. That would be so kickass.
I've got nothing more to say and tons of homework to do so see ya, guys. Vietnam War, fun.
Oh! And as a parting note, I have been absolutely enthralled with the Kennedy family for some odd reason. Jacqueline Kennedy is so pretty. ;;
Edit: *giggle* This is my 69th journal. *is so immature*
- What I'm feeling~:sleepy
- What I'm feeling~:giddy
- Headbanging to:Our Lady of Sorrows - My Chemical Romance
New York City.
Best friend coming along.
My life is fucking amazing.
Edit: LMAO AND THEN I LOOK AT MY FRIEND'S PAGE.
- What I'm feeling~:excited
- Headbanging to:Peacemaker - Luka Megurine
...wow guys I feel loved.
And by like, 10 AM. I had been wished happy birthday by three people on my phone and three people on IM. Jesus guys.
- What I'm feeling~:impressed
Well um, nothing much has been happening. There's an AU!RP going on between me, Anna and Neiha. Princes, ladies and servants ohmai. Mel as a servant is making me giggle. Along with the thought of Paris in tights.
...sooo I just realized, a lot of my f-list is involved with my intricate RP (not the AU XD). Either greatly (like Neiha holy shit) or very little (like Kelly, I think you only RPed with us, what, once? That was great though. We should do it more often!). Wow, I have no life.
So I've been pretty happy. Yeah, life's been going pretty good for the most part.
THAT IS REALLY SURPRISING ACTUALLY.
: DDD AND I GET CAKE TOMORROW WOOTAGE.
N-Now... to write that six page short story that is due tomorrow. OTL.
- What I'm feeling~:content
- Headbanging to:Too Late to Apologize (American Revolutionary War Style)
I can make a really cool rainbow ...sorta
- What I'm feeling~:sick
- Headbanging to:Mrs. O - The Dresden Dolls
....I think Neiha is the only one who would get this. *has to do it anyway*
BUT ANYWAY. I GOT MY REPORT CARD TODAY.
As you may or may not know, I have half year scheduling. That means, as of a week ago, I have been on an entirely new schedule that earlier this year. AP classes however run full year. So:
AP United States History
Algebra II - H
English II - H
AP United States History
....Who is with me in saying that is extremely unfair?
I GOT ALL As!
Now way grading goes is that the school is split into four quarters with a midterm and a final. Midterm is only used for the rare full year classes. Mostly it's two quarters and finals and then another two quarters and finals.
So my grades are:
AP United States History: 99
Algebra II - H: 94
Chemistry H: 97
English II - H 95
AP United States History: 85
Algebra II - H: 93
Chemistry H: 97
English II - H: 92
...eheheh my grades went down a little bit. Theeen comes my midterm/finals I was freaking out about a week and a half ago.
AP United States History: 100 (Actually it was a 108 and the eight points were taken, halfed, then added to my second quarter grade.)
Algebra II - H: 90
Chemistry H: 96
English II - H: 94
So sguidfgndfj! Though I'm mad that I didn't get an A on my Algebra final. Yeah 92 is the lowest A in my school. It sucks. ANYWAY. ONTO FINAL GRADES
AP United States History: Full year so not counted yet but doing great!
Algebra II - H: 93
Chemistry H: 97
English II - H: 94
I was hoping I'd get a 97 on the Chemistry final so it was 97 all the way through, it would amuse me. AND THAT'S NON WEIGHTED. ON MY GPA IT CO
BUT ANYWAY LONG STORY SHORT. I GOT ALL A
- What I'm feeling~:ecstatic
FINALS ARE OVEEEEER! I have new classes starting on Monday and DAMN I am excited. Creative Writing, Gym and German II. I will be lazing the rest of the year~
I haven't gotten my grades back yet since i just finished my last final about two hours. I'll post the grades for each semester (weighted and non) when I get them. *is so so happy*
I'm being optimistic about my finals so I don't think I failed any at all. And hopefully I got in the 90's for all them! I know I already got the highest grade on the multiple choice in APUSH for my midterm. He hasn't graded the essays though (and I think I did bad on one XD) so I'm like "Oh shiiiit". Ah well, it'll be okay.
I am no longer stressed and now I see how tired I really am. Jesus I'm exhausted. Maybe I'll sleep better now... God, I'm surprised I didn't give myself an ulcer like my friend. XDD
Icon is revelvant as always. Remember "No Logic" from a while ago? Well that's how I feel right now, which I have put in the title. Plus this icon is so pretty and happy! I love Luka <33
...If only my muse was doing as well. Eek. He's currently curled up on the couch in a thin blanket, shivering, the laptop abandoned on the table in front of him and a mug of coffee in his hand. And this is my New Englander, who doesn't get cold at anything. >:
He's so irresponsible sometimes. XDD Conversation in my head went like this:
Me: You know you're cold because you haven't slept right?
Mel: Yeah... *shiver*
Me: Go to sleep!
Me: Why the hell not?
Mel: Ya remembah how many cups ahf coffee Ah drank?
Me: ... No, why?
Mel: Neithah do Ah.
Basically. He's so wired, even though he wants to pass out, he can't. Wow.
BUT YEAH FREEDOM OF ALL ALGEBRA II H, CH
- What I'm feeling~:accomplished
- Headbanging to:"No Logic" - Luka Megurine
It is also finals week.
Wish me luck?
- What I'm feeling~:intimidated
Apparently there is suppose to be snow too but I don't see.
I'm obsessed with Luka again. I'm listening to "No Logic" right now. I love Luka so much. She's so pretty and has the best voice in my opinion. I really think that Miku's overrated. My second favorite is Len. Leeeen. XD It's so much more difficult to find good songs of them two. I have only found one where they sing together. "Pygamalion". I don't know if you can find it on Youtube but if you can, listen cause it's SO amazing. They compliment each other so well.
So I'm eating goldfish in my PJs at 4:30 PM and my kitty is trying to eat my goldfish. Stay away from mah goldfish, bitch!
For a second I wondered if I should give an update on my RP because I highly doubt anyone understands nor cares but then thought "It's my fucking journal, so I'll say whatever the hell I want." : DD
So yeah, Mel is drawing Paris... naked. : D He's so embarrassed about it. Paris' tattoos disappeared for a while so Mel wanted to draw him without them. Tis cute. Way better than two days ago when they almost broke up >: They're so much better now : D
.... God dammit I need razors. I've been using the same one for a month and it's awful. But it's better than hairy armpits/legs. Yes, TMI.
OH! By some weird coincidence, my friend mentioned the Roman legend of Pygamalion. Which I shfiudfnj'd to and asked her to explain it to me. Apparently it's about a man who carved a statue of a perfect woman and then wished for her to be real. Aphrodite had pity on him and made her real. I suppose that makes Len the man who carved the statue and Luka the statue. I find it funny how that came up around the time I was talking about it.
For some reason, I'm so content right now. I don't know why. Maybe it's listening to Luka. I love her voice~ Oh! And Megan is making me icons of Luka. Thank you Megan I love youuu~ I also got a buncha new ones. I love them all. I wish I could use them all but where. At one point I had 55 journal entries and 55 icons. I debated putting them to each of my journal entries but nobody would see them. I am in so in love with icons.
So yeah~ Had an awful week but today seems good. I'm dreading finals next week but after that FREEEEEEDOM! And my Creative Writing class starts. I'm SO excited for that. So so so excited. I have it with Jess too! It will be loads of fun!
- What I'm feeling~:mellow
- Headbanging to:No Logic - Luka Megurine
Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.
Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
I rock : DD
- What I'm feeling~:devious